Wednesday, April 14, 2004
i cant sleep!!!!! and i cant study!!!!! argh!!!!
something's up with me... and i dunno what it is... and its driving me up the wall... i know the most obvious and least important fact and that is that im in my almost-bt-not-officially-sick state. i did more exercise today from walking across my room to the washroom than i did walking down to the cafetaria.
and i really dont know if i've been productive or not today... probably not... i seem to have gotten up to lecture 10 on econs somehow... bt it feels as if nothing has really gone into my head... the fact that its an essay paper makes it so much worse... this is probably caused by my short attention span problem (which i found out i have today!)
went to bed at 12... fell asleep at 1 smt. woke up at 2.30 and here i am now... unable to study.. unable to sleep!!! whats wrong with me???
had a strange dream last night in which i (found the courage and?) did something i still havent been able to do in real life. i guess its really true that our dreams reflects our worries, emotions, etc.
yesterday i found out something new which in fact has absolutely no direct link to my life itself bt it does have smt to do with a friend's life... its weird sometimes when you think that when everything is looking good something just jumps out at you. natural worrier that i am cant seem to keep the problem off my mind. really sometimes: ignorance is bliss..
at times when im troubled by problems that i really cant do anything about... i'd wish i was really really really dumb. coz then i wont have to think abt the problem coz i might not even know there's a problem in the first place. how's that for logic?
how important is honesty? personally i find it VERY important. i think one of the biggest risk in life one can ever undertake is risking one's heart to a person whose honesty is doubtful. i mean a white lie here and there is okay... how many of us can actually say we have not lied before? bt when its more... i dunno... guess like edmund said "trust and dishonesty shouldnt go hand in hand"
oh well... dawn's breaking... maybe i'll get proper sleep sometime during the day...
something's up with me... and i dunno what it is... and its driving me up the wall... i know the most obvious and least important fact and that is that im in my almost-bt-not-officially-sick state. i did more exercise today from walking across my room to the washroom than i did walking down to the cafetaria.
and i really dont know if i've been productive or not today... probably not... i seem to have gotten up to lecture 10 on econs somehow... bt it feels as if nothing has really gone into my head... the fact that its an essay paper makes it so much worse... this is probably caused by my short attention span problem (which i found out i have today!)
went to bed at 12... fell asleep at 1 smt. woke up at 2.30 and here i am now... unable to study.. unable to sleep!!! whats wrong with me???
had a strange dream last night in which i (found the courage and?) did something i still havent been able to do in real life. i guess its really true that our dreams reflects our worries, emotions, etc.
yesterday i found out something new which in fact has absolutely no direct link to my life itself bt it does have smt to do with a friend's life... its weird sometimes when you think that when everything is looking good something just jumps out at you. natural worrier that i am cant seem to keep the problem off my mind. really sometimes: ignorance is bliss..
at times when im troubled by problems that i really cant do anything about... i'd wish i was really really really dumb. coz then i wont have to think abt the problem coz i might not even know there's a problem in the first place. how's that for logic?
how important is honesty? personally i find it VERY important. i think one of the biggest risk in life one can ever undertake is risking one's heart to a person whose honesty is doubtful. i mean a white lie here and there is okay... how many of us can actually say we have not lied before? bt when its more... i dunno... guess like edmund said "trust and dishonesty shouldnt go hand in hand"
oh well... dawn's breaking... maybe i'll get proper sleep sometime during the day...
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